JoJo went along with it because she thought maybe if she was small enough they’d finally release her third album.
“I thought that what I was wasn’t enough, that it was dissatisfying. So I started getting really f***ed up. I started drinking, making out with strangers, looking for validation in attention, looking to feel pretty, looking to feel good, looking to feel worthy,” said JoJo.
She remembers needing to feel “buzzed” to be okay. “I would go to the edge and stand on my tiptoes on the edge,” she said.
Speaking to People magazine, JoJo said she’d drink to the point of blacking out because she was “feeling overwhelmed and found myself wanting to get out of my mind because I was so scared and so sad”.
JoJo’s father was an opioid addict and died from his addiction. It was his death that eventually pulled her back from the edge as she realised she did not want to end up dead. Her dad had once told her when she was younger “addiction is like Arnold Schwarzenegger pumping iron in your backyard just waiting for you”.
She never forgot his words, and even as a kid remembers thinking, “I don’t accept that just because this is in my DNA that this has to be in my future”.
“At the end of the day I am a product of a family with substance-abuse issues,” she told People.
At 18 years old, JoJo was diagnosed with clinical depression and has been taking antidepressants and going to therapy ever since. She didn’t feel any shame seeking help, because of the mental health issues she’d witnessed in her family.